Little Rice Ball

2007-03-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

often times we just leave behind
so many beautiful things

the little things in life that make us who we are
make us smile
make us cry
make us laugh

at the end of the journey
who do we have?

who are we?

grab a knapsack
and trod on
miles ahead
but the road's empty

just a warm fire in that faraway place
awaiting your return.

2006-10-08T18:58:00.000+08:00

dejavu of marcus when i got assigned to be
Iggy's logger yesterday during work at [the arena].

he's truly inspirational. i just love the way he handles
people. such skill and sincerity, honesty. the amount
of respect he gives to both participants and crew.
people would argue that its unneccessary but look here
that's your example of a true leader. one that gets the
respect, admiration of the people without throwing
weight around and bossing others.

now that's what i call a good producer.

2006-10-01T17:25:00.000+08:00

oh yah,

today is hk and china's national day.

wrote an article for sgnew wave to coincide
with the event. thought about alot of issues.
and it became a case of 越捻越烦恼.

anyway, a pic i came across... for cheryl and
to cheer myself up. cheryl, by the way,
when's your anniv.. i've got to get your stuff
back for you and send it to yo.
ps: happi bdae daniel wu~

daniel wu directed this... i wanna watch it.

2006-10-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

i know i haven't blogged for a long time.
just couldnt find the time nor the mood...

been rushing about here and there,
and sometimes i dont even know what ive
been busy with... if i havent been busy then
how come i dont have time for myself?
and i'm beginning to wonder... how come
my holidays dont feel holidays?

and all i feel like doing is sitting down and
lapping up an old hong kong movie.
like some chow yun fatt movie.
like 2 hrs of doing something for myself
and something that i like to do.

sigh... just feeling so... so lesliecheung if you
get what i mean.

2006-09-13T17:44:00.000+08:00

PS: will talk more about jue dui superstar when
my photo with uncle steven comes in~ XD

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

feeling very sleepy at the moment.
had to wake up to go for poly forum briefing early in the morning at 10.
how lucky. and when i arrived there, it was just a repetition on what
had been written in the email. so what's the point of going there to listen
to what i can read by myself right? *sighsss* but anyway, collected
my blazer as well as junwei's student card? haha... careless guy left it lying
about the place... and when i saw his student card...

(omg... what does junwei do to his card?)

i was reminded of this.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
*feels like dying*

anyway, yup... went to collect the goodie bag and blazers
with my crazy PF folks again~ stuffed everything into my bag,
and then emptied everything out again to hide away the ugly,
so-called crumpler PF bag... also had lunch with all of them
including Wee Kee, who i just found out, actually turns out
to be Kwang wei's sec sch friend. the world is so small...
And the guys who usually pon PF started asking me if i am from
singapore.. then after that they started saying im from phillippines..
just because of my curly hair? Hey... other sporean girls also have
curly hair okay... and so now to them, im filipino... okaaaaeeeee.....

then went down to town... to settle some things for cheryl...
ordered 2 pendants for her and herman's anniversary.
will send it over soon cheryl ! by the way, how do you pronounce
herman's last chinese character?

The SI posters at cine were staring back at me and i started missing
SI again... ahh.. the good old days *reminisces* haha, i think von
also reminisces about the SI days at cine... but for an entirely
different reason of course... *hee*...... ( echoing in the distance: thanx
aisya, for leaving me at the registration all alone, then so that i wouldnt
know what to do, and so some one would come sit beside me on your
empty seat and teach me how to use the system.......... XD)

Yup, and i got my mummy's birthday present!! the picture will
be up soon... the photo has to have my mum in it ~~

when i came home , von messaged me to tell me she saw
a gimz-lookalike on the mrt... HAHAHA!!!! i think i will just die of
laughter if i meet gimz on the mrt...GIMZ!!!
*sees him typing finger by finger on msn*

anyway... SI's in 1 and a half hour's time !! and tonight's also the
debut of [the finer side]...

quick....... im bored.......

2006-09-12T19:31:00.000+08:00

destroying something you treasure with your bare
hands is very very painful.

but sometimes,
heaven gives you a chance to mend it.

feeling very grateful today because i've mended
a friendship that i thought i had lost 2 years ago.
but after we actually talked, i realised how it
was just paranoia on my part.
there were no hard feelings at all.

but we haven't talked for 2 years...
so it still feels funny...
i guess time will mend things. :D

2006-09-12T19:14:00.000+08:00

destroying something you treasure with your bare
hands is painful.

very very painful.

last night, i broke my jacky cheung concert vcd... so now
it's an incomplete set.. because disc 3 is broken. how did i
break it? i tried to take it out of the casing and somehow,
brraacckkkkk~ it broke. *slums down to the floor & stares
emptily into thin air* i don't even know how to react...
the first thing that came into my mind was : omg. my concert
vcd broke. and i broke it. and there's no way i can ever watch it
again cos its not just a scratch. it's broken.

i feel like dying.

2006-09-11T16:57:00.000+08:00

heard about some news from serene.
feeling kinda annoyed and irritated by it.
like what right do you have to label us as that?
you mean you all are better?

come on, you all are just average okay.
no identity, no uniqueness, no character~
you all are just plain clean and tidy.
but so what?
serene, i really agree with all that you said on your blog~

wake up folks!

2006-09-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to pam... cos she has been complaining
that she's really bored... for her persistance and enthusiasm, hence....
i type this entry. Hahahahaha.....

Well... from the last entry till now... nothing much has really happened
actually.

Some people like mingfong, chia sin and kwang wei have asked
me about my photo with Chi Wai Gor aka Eric Tsang... Hee.. Well, i
managed to take a photo with him because I went to support him at a
charity football match some weeks ago. Actually simon yam was
supposed to be there, but due to filming with johnnie to, he had to give
it a miss... So sad... and to think i was so looking forward to seeing him...
And i managed to get Chi wai gor's autograph ! XD

And this was actually my first and earliest birthday gift this
year... from my dearest daddy... this is the front..

he put more effort into the design this time round so he
didnt have to sign every single card personally...

this year's card is a reflective surface card...

and this is the front of the card !!!! simple and plain but
nice.

and the inside of the card !! nice eh??

this year's autograph is printed cos i think he has less time,
so he put more effort into the design... hee.. i think his
hairstyle quite toot but i like him just plain and simple.

Thank you Daddy!! Your birthday's coming soon too...
Oh my gosh.... it's like, my idol's 45 this year?

when i first started it was this 13 year old girl who had
this 40 year old idol.

now its this 18 year old girl who has this 45 year old idol.

Hmm.. does that make any difference? Maybe in five years time when
this 23 year old girl has this 50 year old idol, it'll sound less shocking.
Hmm... what do you think??

2006-08-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

18 August 2006 - Friday ! MY BIRTHDAY !

Spent my actual birthday with .... YOU GUYS!!

To commemorate my birthday present, I changed my
blogskin's picture ! Hee.... SO SHUAI !

Cheesy pizza!! YUM! look at the pineapples~

Erm.. Grace... you okay ma??
Yah.. can eat le... erm.. yah... erm..

Ning, see the lady at the other table must be wondering
what you're doing.... Ning's rabbit ! Disgusting~~

AHH! Where's Grace ?!?!

Yummy cake!! ----> Mich what are you trying to do?

What brings more warmth to me than those brought by the
candles on my fav cake??

The people who bought the cake with the candles !!

(okay, that was lame)

Whose hand so extra???

So cute!!! It's for you Soohuay!!
Ning says it looks like you... So bad right?

Serene and Soo ~ see... we saved 2 slices just for you ~~
You both can decide who's eating the one with the bigger
candle... Miss you two! Why must have meet-the-parent
session ~~ Why must have school thing ?? Why? Why? Why?
*sits on the floor and wails*

And my balloon !! Thanks ah ma~~
And you two!! *hits ning and mich*
Don't wanna carry for me huh??

Eh... Cannot see Fel's mouth... hehe... Grace, xin ku ni le,
to take this photo... Hee~~Next birthday girl ... Mich and Serene!
Let's go Ning's house watch SHOCK!!

Dont think I need to say much...

Thanks guys!!! Love yoU!!

2006-08-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

17 August 2006 - Thursday

A day before my birthday i celebrated with my 2 lovely
crazy pals, aiping & janice !! Thanks guys, for the mini-celebration!
Hanging out with you 2 is just crazy and relaxing and mad!!

And as usual, we went to pig out !! At....
Sakae Sushi !! ( sorry sean i didnt manage to smuggle
sushi out for you... ps: sean was working at Apple just doors away)

And we ate till we were full ~~~ I shall never stuff myself
and shall exercise self-restraint !!

And after all the sushi, there was still.....

The beautiful sweety cake !! Especially the heart-shaped
one ! So pretty and strawberrish ! (like duh!) which became
my breakfast for 2 days consecutively~~

And the cute card....... of a dog?? singing to the moon??

Look at the two hungry ghosts trying to gobble down
my cake!!

And finally camera-woman gets to be in the shot as well!!

It was a gluttonish birthday bash !!
Thanks aiping jie jie and janice jie jie ~~~ *wuahahaha~*

2006-08-19T18:26:00.000+08:00

16 August 2006 - Wednesday

Birthday celebration with T1A3...

Here I wanna say a BIG thanks to everyone from my class, t1a3 !!
Thanks for organising this sentosa outing and 'shun bian' celebrate
my 18th birthday too :D It gets better every year eh?? Last year's
cake in class was already so sweet and nice, and this year it's much
fun-filled as well ~ *arigatou*

Thank you Von and Kang! For your cards !!

Von's is very articulatly-made and created, it's a film-strip
made out of colored paper ~~ Which she stayed up till 4am to
make~~ With a very funny envelope design of a penguin being
chased by a giant snowball... So 'doraemon' ~

And Kang's is a disguised as a very plain card judging on its
envelope... but the content inside is thoughtful, meaningful
and full of 'heart' !! I like the drawings especially ~ Apparently
one card's not enough, Kang sent me about 4 more cards, e-cards!
Happy Feet E-cards !! Thanks Kang! *huo huo huo huo huo*

And the present !! A Penguin water-cooler!!
Which fills 8 glasses of water, the sufficient amount we need per day~
It's so cute right?? And it looks so retarded !! But it looks really
funny and cute now in my house... One of the few penguin products
floating around nowadays... Rare and special~
Bought by Aisya, Von, Krystal & Kaixiang... Thank you !!

And after that we went to Sentosa's palawan beach to havoc!!

And zonghui's birthday present to me !! A palace... -_-!!!
I was enjoying a nice warm nap under the sun and I kept
hearing some cupping sounds around me... Trust zonghui to
be the one to have the patience :D

Woke up and found myself surrounded by all these
little castles~

And we had fun burying Sean in sand!!

And the leg part was extremely hard to secure because
Sean kept moving and he's ticklish!!

And as usual, the guys had a fun time trying to molest
and pull of Kang's pants in the water, while we girls had a fun
time watching them go crazy !!

And I wasn't spared either !! Being lifted and thrown
into the sea by Aisya and Von. Look at Aisya's cheeky face!

And these unforgettable beach chairs!
Nice to look at, nice to sit on, but you have to pay to sit!
Buy from the restaurant or no sitting!

So steve bought 2 scoops of ice-cream to eat,
for $9.50 !! One scoop $4.50, 3 scoops $10.50 !!
Day-light robbery !! Thanks steve too, for coming down
all the way to Sentosa even though you were having fever
and sore eyes... I really appreciate it !
Hope you recover soon !! :D

And after bathing, I sat there without any suspicions,
chatting with aisya and zonghui about reboning hair.

Meanwhile, Thea and Sean pretended to be buying ice-cream...
And von too cos they were sneakily preparing the cake!!

And "poof" !! My surprise birthday cake!!
Thanks guys!! Especially Thea for bringing it in~
And kang is good at hiding it !! Or maybe I'm just blur~

Making my wishes~

12 slices for all of us~~ and an extra piece that eventually
found its way into the stomach of the sexual t-rex~~

And my wonderful birthday spent with T1A3!!
Thanks everyone for the day spent with you all~
That's another page added to the book of t1a3's memories! :D

2006-08-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. remember i mentioned that i was in very HIGH spirits?
Here's why...

~~~~~* AHHHHHHH *~~~~~~~
a photo of the filming is revealed! Look at my
miracle at work! It's you that keeps me going everyday!

~~~~~~ . ~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~~~~~~~~.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~.

And I was just joking to my mother that if one day i ever get into
a coma, there are just so many ways of making me wake up.
Just say, " Ying, you must wake up quick... you've been unconscious
for 3 months already... quickly wake up, you know why? during these
3 months when you've been sleeping, To Kei Fung has been
doing a new film with Wong Chau Sang, Sam Gor and Simon Yam!!"

And then, I came online and found...

First thing that i noticed was, OMG, he finally found the suitable hairstyle!
Sooo handsome!!! Like, FINALLY la!! And Cheung Yiu Yeung's in too!!
[The Mission] memories are back again~~~~

Then i noticed got Cheung Ka Fai too ! So damn happy!! He just rocks in all
To Kei Fung shows!! And Josie Ho, Hmm.. nice touch.

And then, Simon yam!! OMG... look at that suit !! But as the saying goes,
it's not the suit that's leng(good-looking), it's Yam Tat Wah's san choi(figure)!!
*collects buckets of saliva* And look who's at the back ~~~

And one of the movie stills ! The location, OMG. To Kei Fung, you are getting
my expectations super high, but higher also never mind, cos i SURE wont be
let down, all through the years... i don't even have to doubt it ! And i know
what Santa's getting me for X'mas...

~~~~~~~ * AHHHHHHH * ~~~~~~~~~
I really must talk more about these kind of things! They always become
true ! It's heaven-sent !! Of all combinations, it's the mega-combi !!!
7 years and the magic is back,

THE MISSION II HERE WE GO!!!

2006-08-14T14:20:00.000+08:00

And this is what I call an illegal gathering!!

On Saturday, the crazy t1a3-ers met up to watch the fireworks
by the bay. The open-air ground floor, bridge was already taken
up and packed FULL of people, so we wandered and found ourselves
a nice little cosy corner on the 3rd floor of Esplanade ! So fun !!
And there was nothing affordable to eat around Esplanade, you know la,
it's so expensive... so....

We ordered Macs and they really delivered all the way to
us in Esplanade on the 3rd floor !! Woo !! Macs' service is really good,
except for the waiting time la... We were bored like crazy, luckily for
Zonghui's jokes and the postal-code-service-number. It's a free number
but it cant even understand what is "Hotel Rendezvous"... but it managed
to tell me my house's postal code!! COol ~ Let me find back the number,
then you all can go and try...

And so we saw the fireworks!! But this was taken by i think
kaixiang and eric... who wandered off on their own... the rest of
us stayed indoors and watched from inside... But our view inside
wasnt that bad too ! Damn fun ! The people around us went , " Wah!"
whenever one firework burst into the air, and so we followed. Then,
everyone started to ," Wah!" together, with each time becoming more
exaggerated and everyone started saying it in their most childlike voices!
The magic of how strangers bond when they share the same feelings..
Just like the magic that film and theatre bring ~ XD

And we went to Von's pub to chill out and sing k~ Daniel and
von really have nice voices.. The lyrics of"Ai qing pin luu" really
suits the story of you two~And steve's got a nice voice too,
i never knew that till i heard him sing that night... *ru guo DANG shi~*
hehehehe... Must choose songs with higher key then suit you, like
david songs.. which i felt you sang real well la! Oh yah.. and filzah
was going on and on about how cute every guy in every chinese
mtv looked... Aiyoh, filzah, plenty of chinese guys look like this la...
you should go to taiwan! Aplenty!

And yep... after that we left and i managed to catch the last bus home!
Thanks ant for waiting with me ~ and i finally remembered to msg you
when i reached home ! Hahahahaha... More class outings soon !

2006-08-12T15:06:00.000+08:00

oh, i wonder who's big day it is today??
12 August ~~~~~

It is...... *drum rolls*.............

The Start Of My Holidays !!!!!!!!!!!!
And I'm Back in ACTION !!!!!!!!

Tried to fool you all but I obviously have failed...
By the way, it is NOT Ekin's big day ~~ wuahaha...
I just put it for fun~~~~~ And I know everyone is sick of tony(how can?!)
so I refrained and struggled, and fought with my inner desire and tied
my hands up to force myself to not put tony up again when i return...
So see how much i have endured and sacrificed just for this 1st post....
( *pants*, talk too much nonsense very tired... )

Anyway... I shall stop being so crazy and mad....
How is everybody????? Okay???
I know some of you already prepared chopper to chop me up if you come
in and STILL see the " OH I WONDER WHO'S BIG DAY IT IS TODAY??".
Wuahahaha..... Actually, you still do see it there in this post, cos....
I DID IT ON PURPOSE !!! hehehehe.... *runs screaming like a mad dog*

And while I was away... i know some people changed their blogskins,
added some MIRRORS, and change blog address also ~~ ( change so many
times... GRRR). Sorry also, for "being a slacker".... and thanks for leaving info
for me on my tagboard and email... Sorry haven't been to your blogs for so
long, but I just did yesterday! To make it up to you all :D
I also know that some people have been busy with some things, even though
they are so very very busy .... *coughs, pretend dunno anything*
And michy, KAP KUN KA !!! Thanks for the Kitchen... yay... 16 Sept again !!
( remember that day's Jackie Chan exhibition at esplanade? ) *runs*

Anyway, yup yup... thanks aiping & janice too... thanks for organising this,
organising that... and although this photo is very outdated but i still want to
put.. see you guys soon... oh yah... now my turn to rest, but you two must
jiayou too k! ning can shun bian see aiping's kungfu...

~~~~~~~ xiang long shi ba zhang~~~~~

oh yah... if you're wondering why i sound so high...
it's because of quite a lot of things... which i will
show in my next post... Cos too much to say...

2006-06-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

oh.. i wonder who's big day it is today??
27th June~~~

Yeah darling, it's YoUR big day!
44 this year! oh gosh.. u mean i've been
"celebrating" your birthday with you since
you were 39 to now when you're 44??
my oh my oh my ! how many more wrinkles
have you grown over the past 5 years? Hahaha...
And how much has the little 13 year old teenager
grown over the past 5 years.. ( not much i must say,
judging on how childishly she's typing out this post)

Anyway, the thing is,
I LOVE YOU & SANG YAT FAI LOK DEAR.

2006-06-23T02:06:00.000+08:00

[mood - drained.]

wont you ever understand
that this is probably the end

tired.
im just so tired of this.

how can i ever explain it to you?

you wouldnt even understand
that all along, you've just never been around.

you've never been here.
neither have you been there.
where are you exactly?

do you even know?

it's just been

too long.

coming back like this suddenly isnt going
to make up for anything.

because you've already lost it.
without realisation.
on the entwining paths of your self-created maze.

so slowly had it crept away
that it feels so indistinct.
you can't lose what you never had.

and so life goes on.

2006-06-13T03:31:00.000+08:00

After a long absence, i'm finally back.
Back from hell's gates in a way. ( im sure ning noes what I'm talking about... )
But.. the feeling, i don't know how to explain it... Somehow i feel like as if i've
grown up alot... And it's time and time again that I'm like reminded to take
a slow go at life... i'm already slowing down as much as I can...

Woke up about some things.. and I'm glad things are back to normal...
Life seems so much safer and warm since things not only got back on track,
but should i say, moved on to a better level... that reminds me of Just Once.

Looks like it's confirmed that Ken Watanabe is starring as Cao Cao...
Don't know how to react, but i think i feel like fainting...

Ken Watanabe with us in the new film? HOW CAN?!?!

2006-05-29T12:17:00.000+08:00

School work is piling up till i feel like dying.
Your turn's over daughty, but i think now it's my
turn to suffocate... *sobs* And I've been extremely
unlucky too, I just got stung by a bee yesterday &
3 days over photograph taking has accounted to
nothing thanks to the camera which has some
problems.

Its at times like THIS that Mr Peterson's voice
comes ringing in my head , " If it doesn't kill you,
it'll make you stronger." Thanks alot mr peterson.

Actually, it's not the schoolwork that makes me feel
sick, it's the fact that there are soo many of my favourite
films out now(they all opened on the same day last thursday)
, and it's so difficult to find the time to go and catch them.

But, I managed to catch Da Vinci. Not bad I must say, an
interesting topic to touch on. Ian Mackellen completely
outshined Tom Hanks... sigh... I can't deny it has to do
with the hairstyle...

But i swear that once all this mess is over... The First thing
I am going to do is watch Kelvin Tong's Love Story
to pay up for all the loss of red blood cells and brain cells...
KELVIN TONG, WAIT FOR ME!!!!

2006-05-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

Here you go BA~ the questions are pretty tough...had quite a time
answering every single one of them...

1 點我的人 : my best actress
2 寫出填寫日期吧 : 24th May, 2006
3 愛的食物 : everything.. i am a pig, but i love spicy and sour
4 愛的音樂 : the world would be empty without cheung hok yau.and I would cease to exist if piano and saxophone became extinct.
5 愛的地方 : my private space, my grandma's house,thailand
6 愛的口頭禪 : good night the whole entire world!
7 愛的顏色 : yellow!!!
8 愛的偶像 :tony leung of course and andy lau. others too, but the key word here is AI...
9 愛的甜食 : biscuit.. in other words.. "BANG".
10 愛的節目 : anything that is well produced
11 愛的書籍 : julius ceasar.. i'm serious!
12 愛的店 : every shop in mongkok. hahahaha...
13 愛的作家 : i lurv ji mi
14 愛的唱作人 : cheung hok yau & elton john
15 愛的國家 : Thailand, Hk (of course), Venice (the city of music), Tibet
16 愛的座右銘 : An single script can change the entire course of your life
17 愛的習慣 : dreaming
18 愛的腔調 : filipino kind of cantonese & chinese ( alex to )
19 愛的是守還是攻 : of course is SHOU
20 愛的星座 : Leo (mine)
21 愛的休閒 : enjoying private time alone
22 愛的個性 : Fun and easy going, dare to dream
23 愛的女人 : mummy
24 愛的男人 : my grandpa
25 愛的公仔 : penguins (duh)
26 愛的動作 : the message transferred by the eyes
27 愛係點的 : it is unexplainable and it is the most powerful thing on earth, it is doing anything for him/her, sacrificing
28 愛人地點對你 : silent communication.. so far no one except one friend seems to be able to do that.
29 愛的名稱 : ?
30 愛的科目 : history and literature
31 愛的表白 : ?
32 愛的朋友 : those who know my character already
33 愛的季節 : definately autumn
34 愛的呼喚 : isnt this an Aaron Kwok song? :D
35 愛的數字 : 27
36 愛的反應 : smiles
37 愛的牌子 :not particular
38 愛的身體部位 : my hair because its me ( can that be counted?)
39 愛的回憶 : time spent with different people at different times.. those years spent in Thailand & my childhood & before 1998
40 愛的電影 : too many...
41 愛的網址 : my blog lor :)
42 愛的反面 : ?
43 愛的角色 : a dreamer
44 愛的飲料 : nai cha
45 愛與被愛 : being loved.. who doesn't want to be loved?
46 愛會過期 : if it expires that isnt called love at all
47 愛唔愛我 : ?
48 愛的遊戲 : life is a game itself
49 愛的問題 : ?
50 愛的ALBUM封面 : not particular about this either
51 愛的定義 : sacrificing
52 愛的語言 : like i said silent communication
53 愛的代表物品 : pillow

2006-05-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

Today was a wonderful day !
Class was relaxing as usual, and even more so
with just Marcus and Ronald with us. I got to learn
how to load film into a film camera~ :)
Kang jokes that we should all keep ours, so that we can sell it
on e-bay in the future if we all become famous directors..
Maybe I should frame it up nicely in a small photoframe, it'll be
nice and heart-warming to look back at... ^_^

Came home and slept from 1 till 7 in the evening!
My gosh, I'm living up to the nickname of a 'pig-guin',
the new breed of species between a cross of a penguin & a pig.

And i received a beautiful surprise at night when my Best Actress
called all the way from Perth ! Ahh.. It was so sweet of you to call !
We're insane ~ Chatting for over a 100 minutes! The card is going to blow!
Miss you so much, especially even more after you called!
And it was great catching up with you, and :

hou loi mo gum tong yan keng gai le ~ yao kei see hor yi gong
gwong dong wah chum ying mun.. back in my element. ngor
dei ge plan yiu gei ju yat ding yiu carry out when lei fan lei..
Lots more to keng about, dou si zoi man man yat chai wan!

2006-05-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

I finally finished watching Amadeus today. It was really good. The acting of Salieri is so captivating. Now I can truly understand why Salieri
is Jason Chan's dream role. But now that the 2hr30min film is over, I'm feeling abit lost. I'm kind of missing Mozart's giggling, Salieri's scowl and all that orchestra music. And the entire dimension! The themes they delved into, the whole history..
It's just amazing and definately one of the most satisfying
films I've ever watched...
Still overwhelmed.

2006-05-17T01:20:00.000+08:00

It's 1am in the morning and i still have tons of work to do, but i just feel like blogging. My brother told me proudly, "I watched a French film today." I was so surprised, and I thought that I had finally rubbed off some sense into him to decide to pick up an art-house film to watch. Then he proclaimed proudly, " WASABI!". Oh my goodness... lesson learnt - never have your hopes too high.

Speaking of which, Da Vinci will be out tomorrow,
and I'm back into the Jean Reno mood !!
And since I'm into the topid of Jean Reno, there's
something I discovered some time ago, but I'll share it
here today since like i said, I'm into the Jean Reno mood.

Jean Reno, Anthony Wong & Sanjay Dutt.
My three favourite actors from different regions -
ALL BELONG TO THE SAME PATTERN!
Just look at that!
They look like triplets!

2006-05-15T21:42:00.000+08:00

Have you heard the phrase, choose your battles?

I'd say, "choose your losses."

I dreamt of gimz last night.
I can't remember what it was about,
but the familiar feeling of our chemistry was back.
And it felt really good.

Missin' the good ol' days.

2006-05-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

As is often the case with losses, she did not notice
that anything was missing for some time after it had gone.

-Naomi Royde Smith

Musical talk

2006-05-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

A meaningful and beneficial weekend spent.
Definately good for the mind, soul and of course, heart. :)

Went down to Next Stage Academy to give support to
Baby no.1, at a talk about writing musicals.
Double benefit since it was through his musical Snow.Wolf.Lake
that I became a fan of his, and learning first-hand from the
man himself was just too good to be true. Besides, it was so long
since I last saw him~

And I'm on cloud nine! He actually remembers me! Not my name
of course, but he remembers me! Haha... I owe my parents a treat
now, because apparently Dick is not as blur as he seems. :)

Before I went into the room, he was standing there talking to an
organiser. He looked really good, much fresher than he did during
Idol. I didn't make any attempt to catch his attention because like
Pam always says, " Must act professional ~" Anyway, I'm already
quite used to having continue to do my own things when he's busy
talking to someone else. Well... our eyes met and he stopped talking
to that guy. He smiled at me and asked, " Hi, how have you been?"

The feeling was just awesome. We stood there and talked for a
minute or two. He even extended his hand and received mine, the
feeling was just.. just UNBELIEVABLE ! It wasn't so much of the
"touch" that counts, but the "thought" ! It's just wonderful !

The talk was really enriching, and it's nice to hear Dick blabber about
something other than Happy Meals and fishballs. :D He revealed so
much about Man Of Letters (his musical tied with NUS) that I wanted
to gag him ! And I can barely wait for Forbidden City ! Ahh.. It was just
awesome! Just going through the entire creative process of it is enough
to leave you breathless~ And it involves just so much and so much of
love and heart in it ! Someone should have done a tape recording of what
he went through during the talk... This guy really knows his stuff...

And after the talk, I managed to talk with him for a long long long long
while, from upstairs to the front of his car. I told him almost all that I
had intended to tell him but we were quite unluckily interrupted at a
[must-you-interrupt-at-all-times-but-a-time-like-this-when-his-arm-is-
around-my-shoulder-and-there's-only-two-of-us] kind of moment.
*nooooooo* But well... I already count myself blessed. :)

Anyway.. feeling abit dizzy as I type this entry...
Got to stop before I find myself unconscious with my head on the table.
I miss dick!

sum it all up.

2006-05-01T17:53:00.000+08:00

It's first of May!

A fresh new start, now that it's a fresh new month.
It also marks the beginning of a fresh new year
of exciting adventures and more to come in my
second year of poly life.

Looking back at the past 2 months, which were also my 2 months
of holidays, it's been quite eventful I must say.

In March, I got a taste of real-life media standards and expectations,
whilst working on Singapore Idol. The media world is full of the
strangest people and the most difficult people you can ever work with.
But, it's also in such an environment that you pick out and identify clearly
the rare gems hidden amongst the mess.

~ Politics and back-stabbing? ~
Aplenty.
Not just amongst peers, but also those already working in the industry itself.
I find myself in precarious and awkward situations at times while working
on Singapore Idol.

~Dreams do come true.~

Two years ago, i was glued to the tv watching Dick Lee commenting on
contestants, flipping through a particular edition of 8 Days admiring the
sleekness and sophistication of his shop-house.

Two weeks prior to Singapore Idol, i was telling Anthony, how great it
would be if I could catch a glimpse of Dick Lee when he appears out of
the audition room for a few minutes to go to the toilet.

Well...

I guess the rest is history.

~ Team effort ~

March and April 2006 was not just about experience but also about
challenges and team effort. Teamwork is never an easy task to
carry out smoothly. Mutual trust. Reliance. Mutual respect.
Valuable lessons I unknowingly picked up on the way. I guess two
more appropriate words would be : Improvisation and flexibility.
:) But I guess Self- Challenge is the best word to sum it up.

~ Playing with fire ~

Probably a wrong move, but it made me learn how to be more cautious
in the future. I guess by falling down, i learnt that at the end of the day,
it was to myself that I had to answer to, and not to anyone else. It also
made me realise, what it is that I truly want to do with myself.

~ Magic ~

And miracles do exist. Perfection does exist. At least to me.
And since there is a 100% in the world, I have been truly convinced
that nothing is impossible in this world. As long as I live life to the
fullest, anything and everything good can exist on the earth.
I marvel at the power of what one encounter can do to change my opinions
of the world. In case you have no idea what I am talking about, oh,
never mind.

i need a blue sky holiday

2006-04-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

Someone asked me, " jo, are u hearing Bad day?"

my reply:
haha, no, I'm having a bad day."

An afternoon nap under the lulling of my
ever-reliable ceiling fan in the living room,
followed by a freezing cold shower at 10 o clock
at night...

................... 2 escape routes I always take when

" life's been way off line",
and when i'm "falling to pieces everytime."

And I don't need no carryin on.............

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala..

Geez, looks like i just discovered Escape route No 3.

Election 2

2006-04-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

I'm back! after a long abscence...
and all i want to say is...

1) Fundoshi was AMAZING, hilarious and
wonderful !!!

2) Glen Goei is DROP-DEAD charming,
charismatic and all in all 100% PERFECT~

3) Johnnie To is back with Election 2!!!

and hmmm.. school 's so far so good ~

~ciao~

jealous guys

2006-04-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

i don't like jealous guys.
don't like.

why must i tell you what he messaged me.
it's my own stuff
and it's my own life.

and in the first place, that's not even anything
that's a big deal.
it's just normal
so why must you insist on knowing.

insecure and immature.

Cat High's band!

2006-04-16T14:37:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Cat High's band concert yesterday.
Soooo nice ! But their standard has dropped... comparing
to last year's batch... jericho is still one of their best
pieces! Daughter-in-law... tell that to your brother, that
jericho is still one of their best pieces~And met up with
Laiquin, Deborah and Yiqian... Goodness ~ Although
they have all grown up so much but they're still very
much the laiquin,deborah and yiqian whom i knew
5 years ago~ Still very crazy and fun to be with !
Laiquin especially, with all her weird but sensible
philosophies! And the other 2, Still the same!!!
hahahaha!!!! Still the best of buddies~

But what i like about their band is that they have this
very interesting energy within them... very fun, and very
passionate about music too. And i like Andrew... he's so
animated when he conducts! His back view really reminds
me so much of Mr Yea !! Like a mini version of Mr Yea!!
And the monkey is very cute also.... hehe.... monkey monkey~
And there was a sax solo !! Like - Ahhhhhhhh...... But guess
what was the song ! Horror of horrors !!
You Raise Me Up !!!!!!!!! *imitates dick with pencils*

Then went for a nice walk with grace and soo to boat quay...
The atmosphere was great.. and fullerton hotel is so stunning
at night~ glimmering in its own historic glory... And grace!!
i love the trees.... Then we had a long long talk ~ Feels so good
to be with you all again~ relaxed, safe and unguarded....
and most importantly, at home... You two must jia you k...
For everything you do... I'll always believe you all can make it!

PS: oh yes.. SANKEW for your Chocolate easter bunny~ I can't
bear to eat it up... hahaha~~keep in my fridge 1st...

Picture of the day:

I chose flute cos I was enjoying the flute performance the whole
night ~ And.... this guy looks like simon cowell playing the flute.
Like.. in a million years ~

krystals taste and my taste

2006-04-16T02:26:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered what kind of guy will evolve out of
a mixture of Krystal's taste and my taste??

No idea? Check out the picture of the day below ~

fishes

2006-04-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

Men, there are many fishes in the sea.

Women, there are many fishermen.

But... as in all cases, there are definately more
fishes than fisherman out there.

So ladies, don't be surprised if your husband has
more than just one wife.
Because, to balance out, the fisherman must catch
alot of fish.

---- anonymous.

i miss you...

2006-04-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

All i could think of was you.
You would never have done that to me.
But that's why i loved you.

That's why i love you.

I thought i could bury you into my memories.
keep you safe in a special place within me.
where no one would know
where no one would find out.

but tonight
it was you i was thinking of
it was you who i needed so badly.

to tell me if what i was doing was right or wrong.
you would definately keep me safe from harm

lost.
stunned.
blank.

you never gave me a chance to feel this way.

but if it were you
it would have been different.

trust?

isn't it funny how i did harbour some suspiscions,
how there used to contain the feeling of fear of you.
within me.

i thought i would be happy
satisfied.
i thought it would be alright.
forever preserving this memory of you.

but i found out
i'm not.

lying to myself all along?
i'm not that strong afterall.

Kimura is the mystery man!

2006-04-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

And the Winners of the Guess who is this Contest
are............ *drum roll*

PAMELA AND DAUGHER-IN-LAW !!

~~**CONGRATS!!**~~

The mystery guy in the photo is...
no other than Takuya Kimura~

Haha~ Looks like young version of
andy? hehe~ the nose eh? But.. it's not!

And here are your respective prizes !

A baby for you pamela~
Cute ma?

And here's your's !
Shuai eh? white color~
Wanted to find back the feeling
for you... but... couldnt find any
photo with "that feeling" ... So
give you a normal cool pic !

Fundoshi !

2006-04-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

I've finally booked my tickets for Fundoshi!
Yesh! And PHEW! Haha, I'm not going to afford to
miss it like how I missed Army Daze earlier....
Can't wait to catch it next thursday night~
Woohoo! Glen Goei here i come!

I finally returned to the cinemas to catch a movie
yesterday ! It's been so extremely long... The last film I
watched was Geisha... And that was ... Disappointing...
(argh~ ken watanabe ~*bangs head on table* ).
Anyway, yeah... It was Ice Age 2 and i caught it with
eric... He was just marvelling at all the CG and he kept
saying one thing throughout the entire movie, " Wah..
This one I wonder how long they took to render~ "
CG student, what can I say? Hahaha~ Anyway, I still
like the first one better, somehow it just has an edgier
feel to it. Part 2 is a little too kidified, and the ending was
rather slip-shod...

And, my In the Mood For Love poster is finally ready to
ascend my room wall ~ Finally ! I can immerse in the
Wong Kar Wai mood before i sleep every night ~

dear's retarded pic

2006-04-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

picture of the day :

haha! got the photo from "boss"....

Just WHAT is he doing la?!?!?!!

shopping!

2006-04-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

It finally feels like holidays! Being able to go out with my
friends and far away from work ! With money too of course!
Went shopping! Now why do i feel like cheryl when i say this?
*hehehe*

Anyway, went shopping with ning and mich at bugis... And
after walking around for a long time, i finally decided on a bag.
I feel quite bad actually .. for most of the salespersons... Because
when they recommend something to me, I'll say " But i don't
like this part.." or " Oh! But no no no~ not this one..."
That's why most of the time I just tell them that I'll take a look
around myself... Very hard to "fok see" rite? I guess
I learnt it from SOME people... *shrugs*

Daughter in law, you're the best la... bargain for me
from $32 to $27. And since 27 is my favourite number, and also
happens to be your birthday number, okay lo, I pay. Haha!!
And we didnt' manage to get your caps! But nevermind,
another time !

And mich and i came up with new lyrics for zhang dong liang's
new song because I love this song and the tune is so catchy!
And we heard it where ever we went today ~

the original is this -->

只因為你我情不自禁闭上眼睛心裡想了想还是你

But he sings it like this --->

只因為你我欺負自己鼻腫臉青心裡想了想好神奇

Haha! And i am so addicted to this song! And i was so
addicted to the song the whole day that i kept singing
it... And it was the wrong version that I kept singing...

And as i was looking at clothes and singing the song at
the same time, suddenly someone rested his wallet on
my shoulder. I turned around and immediately had the
feeling of someone taking a huge pail of freezing water
and splashing it onto my whole body. Haha~~

ahhh... let me go la~~ how come i have to meet you
even when i'm out to enjoy myself shopping? just when
i've finally ended all my commitments and it's time to
havok... you have to appear in front of me....
I really had the " bu hui ba~ are you playing a joke on
me? " feeling ~ Fate?? When i decide to "dump" you
le then fate come... What is this??

finally freed

2006-04-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

Finally, our performance for Showtime is over ! Such a great relief... We've made it ! And i'm proud of how we've performed, because we've really come a long way. Since the beginning when we sourced for ideas, till the drawing and measuring of the masks, till buying the materials, making the props and coming out with the entire flow for the full performance. And guess what? All of it, from the beginning to the end of it is all original and invented by us! I'm really glad and amazed by it, although looking back , it's really scary too... I guess I don't have to say much, we've been through this altogether ! *hug* and ps: thank you kaixiang and eric for coming down to support us...

It's finally time for me to go out with you daughter-in-law! And also fel and serene, mich and all... And i decided to have a picture of the day too ! Copy you but let's see who can guess the person in the picture.... Guess correctly got present ~

visit to mediacorp office!

2006-04-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

today went to mediacorp office.
wow the office is so big but its so cramped up too.

everyone sits so near each other and everyone is
all in one office together. how do they find their
tables mannx...

anyway.... saw a few familiar faces today at mediacorp!

steven - ahh.. didnt get to call him because i was busy
carrying the props to the storeroom... and he was busy
talking to about 3 other guys at a table... and i realised
something !! he still hasnt changed one bit.. cos he was
still having his handphone in his hand! *shakes head*
Hai... i miss his secret smiles ! i need one now cos i'm
feeling so stressed and tired ! They never fail to pump
more energy into me to make me motivated! i want my
TRIPLE- S now !

Iggy - i want to annouce : wah! Iggy is damn shuai !
i was walking out of the office and i saw some guy
sitting and talking with someone at the table.. then
i thought it was "dear" so i tilted my head abit and
looked at him. Then that guy stopped talking for a
while and the facial expression was a " eh!" and then
he smiled at me~ omG~~~ bei ta dian dao ~
I didnt know that iggy can look so shuai one ~
looks so different from that time at idol ~ I think
he really looks so different when he wears a collar
shirt.. a grey collar shirt.. omg..so shuai lor...
and he changed his hair style too i think.. But then
krys u have a point... its Iggy's poise too.. if have the
shirt but no poise also cannot.. wahahaha... by the way,
Krys u are so mean, say your good friend is so manly
and then mine is not... Humph! But then whatever u
say i also dont care... cos my best friend is fun, and
fun in his own special way tailor-made to match me!
GiMZ !! You're the best !!!

Kimchii - she sits right opposite weng and qwen...
hmm.. still so beautiful... but then also like quite
strict and too focused on work.... she makes me miss
gerrrrrrrrmit.... KIMCHII !!!!!

Suat Jien - OOh.. saw her pacing up and down in
her room through the blinds.. I dunno why when
i think of her i immediately will imagine Godess
of Mercy.. Wahahaha~~~ she's damn nice la!
I'll never forget the time i brought jennifer's
note to the viewing room and was supposed to pass
it to someone... then when i went in and passed it
to that someone.. then the lady beside her turned to
me and smiled and said , " Eh! Hello !" Then i was
like , " oh hi~~" while trying to remember who
this lady was.. I knew i knew her, but i couldnt
remember how come i knew her and when i knew
her.. then 5 min later then i remembered who she was.
She's damn nice la... she's the female version of steven..

"Boss" - EATING!! hands carrying a box of food or
something! i knew it ! *shakes head* Haiyoh!!
Yaohan!!!!!!!!! Forever eating one! Really Really
non-stop one! Luckily steven's room is quite a
distance away from Yaohan's table! If not ar..
omg.. can't imagine how can steven tahan it
everyday .. every minute.. every second... I can
just imagine... usually steven is like so patient
and understanding and gentle with everyone...
then somehow only yaohan will make him raise
his tone and become very pek chek! like, "YAOHAN!
CAN YOU STOP EATING!?!?!?!"

Dear - that stupid dearrrrrrrr..... really saw him at
office today.... stupid guy sitting down on a chair..
if not i would have tripped him and make him fall...
grrr... feel like stabbing him !! Dunno why but i
always have the feeling of stabbing him when i think
of him ! Stab him then hit him then give him a
buay song face ! Grrrrrrr.... that big fat bully....
go hair cut and try to be handsome ~ then wear such
a nice shirt and try to look charming.. then the hair
so nice and fluffy try to look pure... all nonsense one lor
he ! Argh~~ really wanna argue with him ~ always
give me those funny looks and anyhow call me all
the time then call my name liao then i reply, then he
will say , "orh.. nothing." ARGH!! *stab stab stab*
Stuppidddd!!! Somemore discuss work so serious
then didnt notice me cos trying to look manly !

Don't see then don't see lor.. i also don't
want to see you... HUMPH!

i miss you.

2006-04-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

i miss your lame jokes.
i miss your voice.

i miss that blur look on your face.
i miss all the stupid questions you'll ask me.

i miss peeping at you through the slit.
i miss sitting by you on your chair handle.

i miss rummaging for sultana with you.
i miss getting your tea for you.

i miss reminding you to adjust your chain.
i miss reassuring you that i can't see the jacket on your lap.

i miss the way you share about where the things in your house are.
i miss the way you ask me about how's my life so far.

i miss watching you sleep soundly, calm and contented.
i miss whispering your name, cajoling you to wake up.

i miss your smiles.
i miss your exaggerated moves.

i miss the way you look at me.
i miss the way you call my name.

oh my god.
i miss you so bad!

I miss you!!!!!!

wonder how my 4 babies are doing...

2006-04-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

*~shifu happy birthday ! i will try to send you
your card as soon as possible...~*

my poor "boss" must be not sleeping now.
Poor boss must be busy like anything
now that it's the theatre auditions..

Ahh.. i wonder how my 4 "babies" are doing now...
12.11 am... must be still stuck in mediacorp... so
many things to do.. filing and keeping track...
tomorrow's another long day for them.. i really
wonder how dick's going to manage to wake up
so early again tomorrow... someone's definately
got to drag him out of bed cos this guy cannot
wake up early one! I have witnessed the after
effects of dick waking up early ~ groggy, hungry,
blur and most importantly - lame.

anyway.. yah.. miss them 4.. and of course him.
gimz that bugger... *yawns.. i'm sleepy*

apologies

2006-04-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone for the anger in the last post.

But.. yeah... i really don't like people adding
salt to my wound when my luck's really
down on me.

My luck's been really really down on me.
Ever since idol was over.. all the luck has
seemed to go away. it's like, things have
been going too well for me until now its
time that all my luck has been used up..
Ray! Help me!

So... i apologise for being short-tempered
and moody... And i hope no one is too
afraid of me.. because you all know that
I'm seldom like this right? hehehe...
self-denial ~ Yup... so I shall say sorry
here if I've offended anyone but that
does not mean that you all can try to
cross the limits and piss me off more.
Because there IS a limit to my patience
and I've sworn not to be so kind and
so soft hearted and I shall think more
for myself and not always give in to
others...

And that does not mean that I'm
okay with people who are insensitive
and unfeeling. Because I'm just a
person who can't take insensitive
people and their comments.. sorry,
i've been brought up in such an
environment and I just cant,
absolutely can't take mechanical
people and scientific people...

I am sooo sorry ........

Anyway, thanks krys, for being
sensitive and feeling enough to
sacrifice for me... Big HUG!

just get a life

2006-03-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

here's a warning to everyone.

if you are not a generation above me.
if you are about the same age as me.
if you don't know what you are doing.
and if you dont have my respect.

don't come and lecture me.
because i hate people to lecture me.

i am not going to listen to what you
consider advice because to me.
that is just utter rubbish.

open your eyes wide and wake up.
what i need here is not lecturing okay.
if you cant offer anything better
then just jolly well shut your trap.

i hate people who just talk alot and
lecture you all the way.
get a life man.

thank u

2006-03-31T03:08:00.000+08:00

i was feeling so down.
and just so tired.

weary.

the past week has just been taxing.

sitting in my bed.
after a day of ups and downs.
i laid back and let the noise of the day
just be blown into a portal known as
my memory box.

then somehow.
u seemed to know.

the phone lit up with a message.
and i turned to look.
4 simple words.
just a little care.
but it did wonders for me.

i will never forget
how you brought a smile to me
on a night like this.

Von's bdae

2006-03-31T01:29:00.000+08:00

Moving away from Idol for a while, it's time
to blog about other things.. lest I become more
stressed and tired...

Today was a.. weird day.
It started out as a pretty moody day.
Reason?
Well.... stress and worried about our concept,
and whether our pitching later on in the day
would be successful. I was really worried that
we would get feedback like: Oh! this is too
big-budgeted and is over ambitious, scrape it.

Well.. and it didn't help to douse the flames of
stress when "my boss" called me back to work
for idol... That's because it would mean I would
have to sacrifice my group for idol... I would
definately not "pang seh" my group of course,
but i was thinking through by myself, on whether
I would, or more importantly, my group would be
able to cope with me not around on 4- 6th April.
Well, "boss" said he'll call me back at 4pm.. so he
gave me time to consider.. and also, I had to wait
for the results of our pitch before i could make a
decision.

Well... i found out i have such a soft heart... that's
not really good ~ almost 1 week's of frustration
and anger and sourness was completely washed
away with just one smile. Sigh... Joanne, what's
wrong with you? Can you have a backbone??

And we succeeded on making Von cry ! haha~
I knew she would... Von, we'll always love u,
and you deserve everything we did for you
today, You're worth it ! It's Mabeline~
hahaha... Hope you like the cake and the
notes we wrote for you... Actually, I know
YOU DO... but... hehe.. oh well...

Suddenly i remember that uncle who sort
of scolded me for holding the arcade gun and
pointing it at aisya... Haha.. feel dumb and
so embarrassed... That uncle is such a big
spoilsport... Come on man, this is the 21st
century okay, don't live by rules and be so
rigid... old men are not supposed to be so
boring....

Anyway, had steamboat again ! To celebrate
Von's birthday and also our great results !
I loved what Zonghui said ...

me: actually they're darn smart lor.. lose $
from you through food, but earn back alot
from you by selling their drinks at such an
expensive price!
zonghui: I even smarter! I don't buy from
them!
me: but then they make their food so heaty
till you have no choice but to buy from them!
zonghui: But i smart, I don't come back!
me: but you did !
zonghui: *smiling sheepishly* er.. no no no..
this one is cos i give them a second chance!

Like.. What the???! Haha... zonghui is really
super funny... Kept making fun of me with
the prawns and the holes and the god knows
what else... Reminds me of alvin.. the big fat
bully.... And Ah Kong also maligned me many
times about what Half of ice cream, which
became Hump... Dirty boys maligning a girl
who is less dirty than you...

Cooked lots of food with aisya and she ate
till she was so full.. so was poor eric... but..
after inlfuence from "boss", eating doesn't
seem to be a problem anymore.. I eat alot..
And I peeled so many prawns for pammy!
Because i lost the bet to her that i wouldn't
get an A or AD for intro to film... Well...
I still owe doctor V his Be with Me dvd...

We went to esplanade because von's wish is
to spend her birthday by the river~ But
it was way to hot tonight... no breeze at all~
goodness~ really killed the atmosphere at
once. But, hey, you're talking about the 2
durians , what else can I complain about?
It's just one of my favourite places where
it's just so peaceful. As in, Inner peace...
not physically... Fel will understand
exactly what I mean.

And i've been recruited into ant's band!
to.. play "anything with 3 valves ~"
yay.. be it a trumpet, cornet, baritone,
euphonium, E flat horn~" i think that's
all i can handle... I really want to try out
the violin at your house aisya! and i wanna
learn how to play the sax! But that's ...far...
I miss band so much ! I guess Mr Yea was
so right about his prediction that i'll
remember nothing about primary school
days except for my band practices and
performances and competitions...I've come
to look at it as One of the greatest lessons
and experiences in my life... it has influenced
me so much in the way i see life and feel life,
unknowingly it has moulded me into the way
i am today~

Anyway, we took lots of funny photos with
weird poses, and cool shots for our band
promotion covers.... And i learnt a new
word today! Aisya taught it to me.. it's a
genre of music in which is played by mostly
brass instruments.. Ooops.. aisya, I've
forgotten it! Geezz

Oh no~
After my hearing is almost as good as Doc V.
Now My memory is almost as good as his.

continuation of day 2 , 17th March, Friday

2006-03-24T11:56:00.000+08:00

Continue - Day 2 , 17th March 2006 Friday

Anyway, after taking a photo with dick,
we settled down to some "serious" talking.
It was really sweet cos he was the one who
initiated the conversation. That's what I
really like about him. And it was kind of
cute too, cos, it didnt really seem like a
conversation either. We were kind of
lazing around and mumbling to each other.
He was lying in his chair, just looking straight
in front of him, kind of dazed out. And i was
sitting on the handle of his chair, also just
looking blankly straight ahead. To make things
more easy to understand, you could say that
the two of us were kind of sian-ing there together.
And i'm sure the mood we shared was : Hai, it's
going to be one long day ahead... Sigh....

Well... I shall not reveal what we said here since
it's my own special memories with him. But,
we have a "32 years minus 6 days" age gap,
( he's born on the 24th of August ) so you can
imagine what we will talk about... Ya?Hehe....

But i shall share with you a conversation between
us and flo since she joined in on our conversation
sometime later.

dick: hmm... i wonder if my yakun toast is here
already...
me: you've ordered it already? or u want me to
get one for you?
dick: oh no.. i .. i .. i asked for it already.. someone
is getting it for me already.. erm.. i.. i forgot her name la.
me: so that person is getting it for you already la, who
is she? you remember what she looks like?
dick: erm.. aiyah! i forgot her name la~ she's .. she's..
me: is she the one who bought you your rojak yesterday?
dick: oh, no no... the one who bought me my rojak is daphne,
... right?
me: yah, that's daphne.. so it's not daphne la?
dick: no no... not daphne...
me: then.. what does she look like?
dick: what does she look like ar??
flo: *suddenly comes into conversation* yah, u describe
to us what she looks like then we'll think of who she might be.
dick: erm.. she.. she was wearing a black t-shirt...*thinking*
me and flo: *leaning forward and waiting, nodding to give him
encouragement*
dick: with .. with a ... spore idol logo ... *still thinkin* ... and..
me and flo: *look at each other with the -__-!! look on our faces.
me: dick.... everyone~ is wearing a black tee shirt with a
spore idol logo on it !
flo: *turns sacarstic* Yah dick, that's VERY useful you know..
dick: no .. *still innocent* i saw that there's a white one also,
and also a pink version...
flo: well MOST of them are in black ones...
dick: *quiet... still has the lost look on his face*
me: *decides to help poor dick* so, it's a girl la...
dick: yah yah.. it's a girl..
me: does she wear specks?
dick: no no ~ *quite sure*
me: the size? * motioning with my arms* , is she abit
plump? skinny?
dick: erm... abit .. abit plump.. just abit only la.. not
very.. yah..
me: hmm.. i'll go out and see if i can get it for you
la... i THINK i have a slight idea of who you're
talking about...
dick: erm.. okay ! *nods nods* yah thanks, abit
plump one la, then .. no specks..

Sigh... what do you think?Can you imagine working
with them for 5 days straight? They're not fussy
nor proud, but.. you have to really adjust to
suit their habits and their characteristics... each
of them is very different and it's really alot about
tempo and keeping an eye on them... Each of them
like to have their foods at different times, and their
drinks also, different ways of drinking too. Like in
the morning, ja will want to drink half her cup of
water, before moving in on the coffee. Then if she
tells you she doesnt want biscuits in the morning,
it doesnt mean she doesnt eat biscuits, cos in the
afternoon she'll crave for them when the morning
dry-mouth thing is over. So, yah... They are all
really really very different from one another...
And they go disappearing everywhere at all sorts
of times... It really relies on alot of heart and
memory and adjustment in order to work with
them properly. But it has been a dream come
true working with them la.. what more can i ask for?

Anyway, where was i? Oh yes, the yakun toast.
I went out to look for dick's toast and found it
with daphne, together she gave me ken's coffee.
So i went back into the room and went to place
ken's coffee at his seat 1st, before hiding dick's
yakun toast behind my back and walking over
to his seat. The he gave the " So How? " kind of
look and i tata! revealed his breakfast from
behind my back. Hehe.. then he "yay! thanks!
ooh.. i'm so hungry ~" and enthusiastically
took the bag from me and peered into it..
Very cute right? Like a little boy ~

Well, then it was time to start work so I went
to get ken back from the carpark and so we
began another long day's of singing. As usual,
yaohan was munching away and steven was
a bundle of nerves, and he still had to fend off
ken's suaning of him and the constant meaningless
bickering... Let me give you an insight on ken's
relationship with steven.

steven: eh all of you all remember to turn off your
handphones okay, cos it will interfere with the sound.
ken: i tell you, your's is worse k, your's is right beside
the monitor ! do you know that there is a higher radiation?
steven: mine is already off, i turned it off.
ken: but do you know that there will still be radiation if
someone calls you or sends you a message?
steven: how can there be radiation? it's off!
ken: there will be radiation okay. Steven you don't believe
me. I tell you.. *nag Nag Nag*

Haiyoh! Ken is really naggy and the two of them will
just go on and on and on ~ Now i think i have a headache.

Went through a long morning of singing. Nothing spectacular
but the contestants did much better than those from Day 1.
We had the interesting guy who sang " I want it that way" by
BSB with the extremely gross actions and horrifying singing.
Dick didn't doze off and slam his head on the table again, but
he just looked on with a " i cant believe i'm sitting here listening
to this crap" expression on his face. Ken's eyeballs should have
felt real tired, after all that peering over at the contestant.
Spent many long hours together, and finally we breaked for
lunch~ what a relief !

After lunch, Ja returned pretty early to the room. I had quite
a good talk with her cos the rest were not back yet. Sat in
flo's chair cos dick's chair is way to far from ja's. Talked about
Koh Boon Pin and primary 1 kids dismissal times. She asked
lots about school syllabus and projects. It was really nice and
cool. She's usually very guarded but I found out she's pretty
nice, contary to what most think of her. I guess we can't
judge a person unless we really know her or him.

Well, dick came back soon after so i found myself sitting in
between the 2 of them. Pretty cool right? But dick, as usual,
was busy discussing something on the phone so well...
just continued chatting with ja till flo came back and i had
to evacuate my seat.

Then we were on to another afternoon's
auditions. Can't remember anything special, but just
the routine of pulling ken back from the carpark and
digging through the biscuit tin with dick so that he
got his lemon cream and sultana, and ja , her wafers.

Oh yes, and taking over suryani's job for some time
since he had to go to the mosque for friday's prayers.
It was definately n0t easy at all handling two jobs at
the same time. Because the control room is so noisy,
filled with laughing all the time, while the audtion
room is filled with constant jabbering of the judges
and steven. And i had to listen and coordinate
between the both of them. And as you all know,
my hearing is almost as good as Doctor V's. And I
couldnt differentiate Alvin's ( the director in the
control room giving the commands ) voice amongst
god knows how many of them there are in the
control room.

And when i first started, i said:

me: alvin, are you all ready?
judges and steven: YES! READY~
me: Wait wait, I'm talking to the guys in the control
room , not you all. Hold on...
judges and steven: oh oh.. okay okay..
me: Alvin, are you all ready yet?
control room: *lots of noise*
audition room: *4 of them joking around with steven*
me: joanne to alvin, are you guys ready yet?!!
judges and steven: YEAH! we're Ready !!!!
me: *ARGH*

But i've to really thank the 4 of them and steven
for their understanding. They were really patient
and nice to me la... Didnt hurry me or get angry
with me. That's why i have to say that the judges
are not big shots with attitude problems and a
stuck up character.

And it was also during suryani's abscence that i
got myself a "dear"... this is the story:

me: alvin, can you tell me when you're ready
so that i can send the next contestant in?
alvin: yah, can can.
me: okay , thanks dear.
entire control room: Woah~ thanks DEAR~

O my gosh, what's wrong with saying DEAR?!
We were both teased like crazy by everyone in
the control room just because i naturally said
thanks dear to him over the walkie-talkie.
Goodness! And sometime in the afternoon,
Alvin came over to the audition room and
found out who i was. Gave me some funny
looks and from then onwards, started bullying
me all the way~~~~~~~~ Using every chance
possible to bully me ~

We rushed through 125 of them because dick had to get
dressed by 7 sharp for a performance at 7.30pm. We
miraculously managed to clear all 125 before 7pm !
Magic ! Handed in the results slip and popped him
a Good Show wish as we collided at the back door of
the audition room.

Cleared the remaining errands in the audition room
before Jenn and steven decided on "same time tomorrow"
for the 4 of them. Flo , ja and ken were packing their
bags so they got the message. So as expected, I was
sent to let dick know about the time to arrive the next
day. Rushed out of the room to trace his footsteps.
Uncle security was fast enough to point out to me a
man in blue, walking away with an orange backpack.
Waited for dick outside the logistics room as he changed
to his suit. After waiting for quite some time, decided to
just go in and tell him about the matter since he would
not be done so fast. And besides I was rushing off to
my father's birthday dinner. So I couldnt possibly wait
all the way for him. Never thought that I would see
him button up his white shirt and struggle to balance
on 1 foot as he put on his black leather shoes. haha!!
Really funny and extremely adorable !

Well... Yup! that's all for Day 2 !

Day 2 - 17th March 2006 , Friday

2006-03-22T15:24:00.000+08:00

Day 2 - 17th March 2006 , Friday

Second day of idol ! Early in the morning,
went there and realised that someone was
not there that morning. Sleeping at home I guess.
But the thought that he would be recovering
at home made me rest assured.

Filzah messaged me to tell me that she would
be late, so I automatically did door first. If I
don't remember wrongly, ken was the earliest.

Sat down to chit chat with Krys and the rest
as we waited for the day to start. Then, dick
arrived in a turqoise shirt with eagles wings
on it. Actually come to think of it, most of his
shirts will be liked by Krys, right ?
Anyway, he looked really nice and refreshing
in that blue top. And yes, finally there was
the Blow Me Away feeling. But he still looks
funny with that orange backpack. :)

Went to the logistics room to get.. hmm...
I can't remember what... but I remember
I went in and saw dick seating there munching
on a curry puff or chicken pie or something
along that line, while talking to Daphne.
Meanwhile, jacintha was busy seated quietly
having her makeup and hair done up.
Ken was having some discussion with jennifer
i think. Well. I have vague memories of such
things. But no, there was no eye contact with dick
at all in the logistics room that morning.

Went back to wait and soon i saw florence walking
around carrying quite alot of things. I assumed
she was looking for the logistics room so i went up
to her and asked her if she was looking for the rest
of them. Then she told me , " No my dear, I'm already
all dolled up! You mean I dont look nice and ready?"
Then she looked so shocked and was partially laughing
at my sillyness and i immediately realised the big mistake
I had made and I apologised to her like crazy... Telling
her, " I'm so sorry!! I haven't really woken up!" Then
she immediately put her arm around me and started
smiling and laughing, still joking with me about my
sillyness. She's really nice and motherly...

I was filling up their cups when Jacintha walked
in, and Qwen knocked the table,
causing the water to overflow from their cups.
So he hurriedly tidied up the spilt water with tissue.
Then I was telling Qwen that " we should have a
cloth around here or something. "

Then as she settled down into her chair,
jacintha asked me pretty casually
, " Sorry, what were you saying?"
I was pretty surprised that she would ask that
because I thought stars kind of like, only care
about themselves and don't treat you like you
exist. But jacintha actually did, and in fact she
even felt that what you said was important.
That immediately changed my impression of
her as someone who is very fierce and haughty.
So I repeated myself and told her , " Oh, I said
I think we should have a cloth or something
around here. " Then she said in quite a blur
and I haven't woken up tone " Why do we
need a cloth around here?" So I told her , "
Cos you guys keep spilling the stuff around,
like the water and all." Then i realised that
sounded kind of mean, but oh well... I didnt
mean it in a blame them kind of way and she
wasnt in the least bit angry, she was still
quite blur and just, " Oh i see... " -ed.

Only florence and jacintha were in the room,
together with the cameramen setting up their
equipment. So i seized the opportunity before
dick and ken, and steven and jennifer came,
to go to von and get her handphone from her
so that i could ask florence and jacintha if i
could have a photo with them. Thank You Von!

Florence is really very nice, she's like a mother.
After I was done with the usual stuff like making
sure their cups were filled with water and ensuring
that their papers and pens were on the table, I asked
florence , " Florence, can i have a picture with you,
before dick and the rest come? " Then as I was halfway
through that sentence, dick came into the room. So what
followed that sentence was , " I mean before the rest of
them come. " haha~ Jennifer came into the room right
after dick so that kept dick preoccupied.

And jennifer said immediately, " Next you know she'll
want to take a photo with dick. " Then dick said , " Oh,
I took with her yesterday already~ " He said it in a
quite show-off tone, like " Haha, what now then take
with me, I was already asked yesterday k ! Its just
that you all don't know " kind of tone. Hehe.. That made
me quite happy , like. OF COURSE. Cos it was great to
know he remembered me !

So yep! Anyway, I was in the midst of talking to florence
so i didnt pay much attention to what was going on
there between dick and jennifer. Anyway, florence is
really sweet and she's so pretty. And she asked quite alot
about Von's phone, saying things like, " Ooh, how come
you have this furry ball thing here? " and " How are
you going to take the picture with this getting in the
way?" and " Oh, it's your friend's phone! i see ~" She's
very spontaneous and was like giving me a tight embrace,
sticking her face to mine... She's really really super nice
and super humble and super motherly.

She's really darn nice, her husband is a lucky man.

Next, I asked jacintha, who was busy with her
make-up. But she didnt mind at all, considering
the fact that she was halfway done up with her
makeup. And as before, Jacintha also asked
about the furry ball. She asked , " Okay,
where's your camera?" And then I showed
her a " magic trick ", haha~ then she was like
, " Oh ! *eyes sparkling * " haha.. Tell you
the truth, Jacintha is actually very blur, and
very cute. Don't be fooled by her fierce exterior.

And one thing, if you get to know the judges
better, remember that Ja likes to see the
photo after you've taken it. And you have to
put it nearer to her, cos she can't see it.
hehe... and you''ve to give her about full 5 secs
to see it too. Hehe.. Ja is really very cute in
real life. She's just like any ordinary blur mum.

And tata! I took another one with dick !
Haha... I told him i was greedy but he said
No problem. And he even suggested taking
one with me everyday, since " Oh no problem,
anyway everyday i'll wear something different,
so we can take a photo with me in different
clothings everyday." The advantage of him being
hiao. :) So as usual, he asked about von's phone.
And if Ja is blur, dick is blurrer.

dick : how come you have your friend's phone with
you?
me: oh, to take a photo with you ma
dick: *blur*
me: cos my phone is not a camera phone
dick: oh.. i see...
me: so I have to use her's
dick: oh.. so you borrowed her phone so that you
can take a photo with me?
me: yup...
dick: oh okay ! *finally understands*

dick: oh , how are you going to take a photo with
this furry thing getting in the way?
me: oh, just hold it back when i take the photo lor!
dick: oh Okay Okay!

I think it was the room la.
I was not awake yet, dick was not awake yet
and ja was not awake yet.
Only flo was energetic and all awake.
We've concluded because Flo has special
ginseng tea in a nice thermos flask while the
rest of us don't. That explains the blurness.

Anyway, I'm very tired now... The sleepyness
and havent-got-up-yet mood of that morning
is working in on me again. And the story
is still quite long so we're taking a break now.
Will continue it soon..

Day 1 16th March 2006 Thursday IDOL

2006-03-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

Day 1 - 16th March 2006, Thursday

Arrived there early in the morning at about 8 sharp.
1st thing that greeted me in the morning was the sight
of someone very sick and weakened. Sigh... what a start
to my day. Like i wasn't already stressed up about the
fact that I would be seeing dick that day. So poorthing~
Hope he is much better now... Overwork la~

Anyway, sad things aside, I was soo nervous about
seeing dick for the first time ever, in person ! As
already promised, I got to do the door cum briefer, taking
over Dawn's job the previous time at cineleisure.

In case you have forgotten, this is Dawn, my da jie.
together with Da Ge Pua.

I was supposed to alternate with Filz so we decided on
me doing the morning shift and her taking over in the
afternoon.

Soon after, the security guard whom I had
befriended the last time on 19th Feb at
Toa Payoh came again... And we made a pact
that he would walkie-talkie me to tell me when
dick arrives since he was in charge of the security
of the glass door and the carpark.

So, I tried to stay calm, talking with Krys, Von,
Filz and Pam, while standing in the middle of nowhere.
Iggy suddenly approached from afar and I called over
to Krys, telling her that " her good friend was here"
Then she had this HUH kind of look on her face,
like , " who's my good friend? " And she said it
right in front of Iggy too ! haha.. Sotong~
Then i told her " If my good friend comes again today,
I'm going to kill him "

Krys and her good friend Iggy.

True enough, not very much later, gimz came.
"JOANNEEED" me as usual and I ignored him.
Then he remembered why and suddenly launched
into a series of denial and excuses saying " You didnt
leave me your number, how can i send you? " Then
we bickered all the way again... Von was trying to help
stop the arguing by offering to take another photo for
us on her phone, but i just decided not to, cos I couldnt
make myself smile at all. I was really irritated with him.
So gimz decided to cheer me up with his MOST sincere
smile. Ya right.

Such a jerk isn't he ? Hahahahaha...

Anyway... paced up and down and up and down,
nervously waiting for dick to arrive.
JUST when i told Krys that , " Jacintha's real
fierce. " , she walked in. I nearly died. Luckily
I didnt say that too loudly. Then suddenly,
Gimz and Jennifer called me to go into the
audition room to settle some stuff so I went in.

By the time I came out, krys, von, pam and
filz were screaming at me " Joanne!! U take
so long to come out. He went off already! "
At that moment all I could think of was
" who went off already ? " And when mr
security uncle came pacing towards me with
his hands gesturing up and down frantically,
i knew that was it.

Gimz had just ruined my long-awaited encounter of
seeing dick lee come in through the door and blow
me away. GImZ!!!!!! * strangles gimz *
I really didnt know whether to cry at my misfortune
or laugh at the fact that my best friend never fails to
be the one who will do the worst thing to me at the
most appropriate times of all. And Gimz knew
just how to piss me off more by saying" Bye HO ANNE,
I'm going to the judges room~ "

*breathes in and out*
Even remembering this brings back that feeling of
drowning in a deep pit of quick sand.

And so that was it. The moment that I had been waiting
for was gone. Tough luck.

Got ready and all. Went through a state of panice to get
the Channel 5 cups for the 4 judges. Green paper.
Golden tickets. I can't remember what else.
It was just messy and panicky.

Then i finally walked out again to await the arrival of
the man whom i was there for. Then my security
uncles told me, " There... Ni xiang kan dao de ren lai le,
kai xin ma? " ( the person whom you're dying to see is
here, can you feel your heart lifting up? ) Then I was like,
" where? " In the distance I could see 2 ladies, whom I
recognised immediately as Florence and Jacintha.
In between them was a man. In black. Not very
eye-catching. But as the man approached nearer and
nearer, with his voice becoming more and more audible,
I knew it was dick. And as he walked nearer and nearer,
he became more and more handsome, and more and more
charming, and more and more cute. Oh My Gosh.

Okay. Anyway... I was so nervous. And i had to guide them
to the room anyway, since i'm working in the audition room
with them. I overheard dick saying , " I feel like an aunty,
carrying so many things " It was kind of funny cos he was
really carrying quite alot of things. If I'm not wrong, that
would include his orange backpack, white coat, umbrella,
plastic bag of food and god knows what inside...

And after that, I seriously cant seem to remember the
exact details of what happened. But I'll probably remember
the bits and pieces as I go through the days.

Let's fast foward to lunch time.

Then the 4 judges left the room and dick put on his white
coat. So handsome mannx. I was really lost for words.
And then von kept pushing me towards him. I think he
realised and felt it cos he turned back to see. But I quickly
turned to look at von so as to avoid the awkwardness.
Then von asked dick for a photo and i offered to take it
for them. I must have been crazy !! I can't remember what
was going on in my mind. I just remember I kept thinking:
He's so shuai and he looks darn good in this white coat. And,
I think I'm going to faint.

Anyway, this is von and dick.
Doesnt he look just great? And the photo is
taken so well too ! Considering the emotional
state i went through when I took this photo.

Anyway, I really was so shy and nervous I
didnt ask him to take one with me. Don't
ask me why. I also can't explain. I just....
I dunno!

So we had lunch and yes I whined all the way.
But oh well.... Von promised to help me get
a photo with dick after lunch.

And i want to stress that I didnt stalk dick at
the toilet. I just paced up and down and kept
looking back to ensure he would come out.
And so he came out and this was the result of
the after-lunch trauma. Thank you von for
taking the photo for me! thank you for your
phone ! It has become an overnight celebrity.

Anyway, for the remaining of the Day 1, I was
being the briefing of the contestants so I didnt
get to be in the room. I don't really remember
much about Day 1 at all actually. Maybe because
I only got to know them better as the days went
by.

I don't really feel like talking about Day 1
so I'll end off with a pic with ken here.
Since it was the last thing i took on Day 1.

Ken is smiling. HAHA! It's a miracle....
This is the Ken who I know on Day 1.
Stay on to find out more about the Real Ken.

~ Continuation ~

Oops.. I've forgotten to add this in Day 1.
No wonder I feel that it can't be that
nothing special happened on Day 1.
I'm sure there was something and NOW
i remember it. Hehe...

Day 1.

I wonder who filled the channel 5 cups up
because it is way too full and the judges knock
into the table quite often because the table is
much lower as compared to last season. So,
when dick sat down and stood up, he knocked
into the table and the water from his cup
Whooosed out onto the black-surfaced table.
So I had to clean up the "mess" with tissue.
And i swear i threw away the piece of tissue okay!
I'm not that crazy.

And some time in the afternoon I also remember
that i offered to transfer the tea from the yakun
styrofoam cup into the channel 5 cup for dick.
then he was nodding and i think he said , " oh!
That's a good idea, thanks ! " So i took his cup
filled with water , together with Florence's cup
since she said , " Oh, mine too mine too!" and
went to the washroom to pour away the water.
And of course, since I was pretty thirsty and
since its-in-front-of-you-might-as-well, so...
yah. I drank some water from his cup.
Okay... You all must be saying that I'm nuts.
Well.... okay , I admit that I am.

So i went back to the room and filled the cups
up with tea. I motioned dick the " You want
this right? " as i lowered the styrofoam cup to
show him the ligher colored tea and he was
busy talking on the phone so he was like,
motioning me back with his eyes opening
wider and nodding. So I served tea to dick
on day 1. Okay. That sounds so lame.
And florence told me to finish up the
remaining that was not poured into the channel
5 cup. So in other words you can say that
i drank from his cup and i drank from his cup.

Okay I am lame.
Anyway. Yah. That's what happened to me
on my journey with dick lee on Day 1.
I better stop before I am being labelled as
Crazy. And no. I did not lick the cup.

intro to idol timeline

2006-03-21T15:16:00.000+08:00

Well, after the extremely long list of 100 things
which i miss badly from Idol, i think it's time to
sit back and recap everything little thing that
has happened during the past 5 days of my
Idol experience... Actually there's so much
and I can't remember it all, because it seems
like a dream floating by. But i will try my best
not to mix up the days and give an interesting
timeline of idol, day by day.

Ready?

100 things i miss bout idol

2006-03-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

SOB!

My singapore idol days are over!!
I can't believe the past 5 days are just gone like this...
So fast !

I miss everything about it !
Okay, not EVERYTHING, especially not all that
barking... but i swear i miss and love everything else
besides that ! Even all that bad singing and bad attitude!

How about a list of 100 things i miss from idol !
Here it goes ! In no particular order !

1) you raise me up aka you throw me up

2) Joanne, NEXT!

3) Alvin ready?

4) Green paper

5) Yellow paper

6) Looking at dick through the slit at the left of the room

7) Steven's handphone

8) THank You For COming

9) the constant feeling that Krys is watching me on the tv in
her room and amusing herself with that dumb look i have on
my face

10) Ho ANNE~

11) jO ANNE~

12) yaohan eating

13) yaohan eating again

14) yaohan : wah this is damn delicious

15) yaohan : you want some?

16) ja : how come everytime i see you, you're always eating?

17) flo : yaohan, must you purposely put the food in front of
us and keep eating, tempting us issit?

18) dick : where did you get that ar? how come i only have
biscuits? Looks nice lei...

19) steven : yaohan , CAN YOU STOP EATING ANOT?!?!!!!!!

20) ken's pencil

21) surianee? where's surianee? Surianee.. Has anyone seen
surianee? SURIANEE!

22) Okay, relack ar... relack... *salman breathing in and out
and tipping toe up and down*

23) steven : okay... we're starting already.

24) 5 mins pass by,
steven : okay... we're starting already.

25) 10 mins pass by,
steven : okay, we can start now

26 ) 15 mins pass by,
steven : okay ar? OkAY ! Let's start the first one!
Come come! Quick quick ! * settles down to his chair*

27 ) next min,
steven : where's ken?

28) packet food

29) krys : you know ar... edward blah blah blah~
DAMN FARNIE LA!

30) von : who wants to go down and buy drink with me?

31) anyone wants my chicken?

32) gerrrmit's daughter's jokes

33) kimchi: coming out already, coming out already

34) gimz typing on msn, FINGER by FINGER -
" nat u suck "
" joanne rox "
" gimz too "
* followed by hilarious chuckling *

35) getting ken back from the carpark

36) pulling dick out of the toilet

37) ken's constant suan-ing of steven

38) ja's wooly pullover

39) showing my " crew " to the whole world
outside the audition room

40) passing result sheets and recieving them
through the slit in the left side of the room

41) tip-toeing to the back of the room to feed my
cameraman

42) heart to heart talk with ja about koh boon pin,
school and primary 1 children

43) krys' morning massage

44) gerrrmit's afternoon massage

45) i love brokeback boys

46) tea _ tea _ coffee _ coffee

47 ) fish porridge

48) next

49) next

50) next

51) crying out to weng : Jiu Ming Ar!

52) 3023

53 ) 2857

54) 1745

55) 3527

56 ) 1053

57) 4862

58 ) 2334

59) 1177

60) 3369

61) 2257

62) 3185

63) 4759

64) 1843

65) 1994

66) 1289

67) 3850

68) 1920

69) ARGH!!!!!!!!

70 ) shadow games with gerrrrmit at the door

71) touchup!

72) tape rolling!

73) dick, your chain seng-eh

74) ja, your hair

75) salman : wad ja tokin?* confuse *

76) steven's secret smiles through the slit

77) cactus brand water cups

78) polar

79) But..... i will give you another chance....

80) me: alvin, can you tell me when you're
ready everytime a contestant goes out so
that i can bring in the next one?
alvin: yah, can can.
me: thanks dear.
entire control room: WOAH~ THANKS DEAR~
me - * slaps my forehead *

81) pam scuttering here and there with a new bag

82) pam's red shoes

83) ant : should I? should I?

84) coke and LOTS of toilet paper

85) leanna : i introduce my grandfather to you la

86) daphne walking around the room like paparazzi

87) "currently"

88) dick : fish balls are just balls of fish right?
flo, ja, ken : * faints *

89) dick : eh, you all help me decide lei, should i have
kentucky or big mac?
everyone: anything la, up to you what.
dick: hmm..then i think I'll have a Happy Meal, can?
everyone: *faints*
jennifer: Happy Meal is for kids lei
dick: No~I thought Happy Meal is the one with the Big Mac?
everyone : *faints*
me: dick wants to be young la
dick : *confused*

90) contestant: *singing*
suddenly,
*handphone message sound - beep beep beep
beep beep, BEEP BEEP BEEP!*
steven: *cringes in the corner*

91) english version of zhui. *shock*

92) sultana/lemon cream _ marie _
wafer _ i don't want

93) lip gloss

94) Maria

95) 16th March

96) 17th March

97) 18th March

98) 19th March

99) 20th March

100) EVERYONE!

oh my god ! tmr!

2006-03-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh.

I can feel my hands shake uncontrollably now.
The both of them.

And its going down to my legs too.
Oh my gosh... I feel like jelly now...
No not you mich, as in real jelly.

This is the exact feeling that I experienced on
the 9th of December in 2004 before I went up
the stage to get Andy's autograph.

And it's the same feeling I had on the 22nd of March
last year as I sat waiting outside Room C on Level 5
of Blk 56 in 2005 for my interview to get into FSV.

I'm super nervous now.
And Snow Wolf Lake is playing on my radio now.
I don't know if it's the right decision but it seems
to be calming me down mentally but somehow,
how come my hands and now... my shoulders too
are vibrating and shaking uncontrollably??!?!?!

And it's Ai Shi Yong Heng playing now on the cd.

AHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't take this anymore.
I suddenly regret volunteering to work for Singapore Idol.

Okay... So it's just Dick Lee....
Just Dick Lee....
It's only Dick Lee.
Yes... a breathing human too.
Just a human like everyone of us.

Okay... this seems to be helping.

I'm going to stay normal tomorrow.
Yes I will and I know I wont faint.
And I won't stare and stay stunned there
with my mouth wide open.
No I wont.

And I'm not going to say anything to him.
Yes I will not if not I may be going to look
like an idiot.

And I'm not going to be afraid of Jacintha and
Ken too. I am not. Ken is not scary.
Okay. He is only 10 times scarier than he looks
on television. That's all. Not 100 times.

Okay, I am embarrassing myself here.
Why am I chickening out?

Okay... I'm normal.
I am just a helper.
Snow Wolf Lake to me is just...
Is just... it's just really nice.
Its NOT the best thing I ever heard in my life
and it is not what I am crazy about.
It is not what I love to listen to and it's not
one of the things I can just die for.
It's not. It's not.

Why do I have this feeling that Jacky will just
kill me if he hears this?

And Zhui is NOT my favourite song.
No it's not.
It's not.

And I don't love shophouses.
I don't .
I don't !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay.
I officially declare that my state of mind is not at ease.
And that I have been lying.

I am nuts.

Army Daze

2006-03-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

GA, how come you are going to watch Army Daze?
I am so envious!! I want to catch it too!! But... I
really don't think I can make it for the last few shows.
18 March , it'll be gone forever... Oh no~ Geez.
It's actually Beatrice Chia and Gerald Chew that I'm
looking out for... She's really impressive, being the
co-director for this theatre play...*standing ovation*
but... I guess it's too late now.
Lack of preparation and foresight on my part.

Speaking of which, I saw Jason Chan last week
outside OUB bank! Woah! I was stunned!
Jason's the actor who's doing more of the less-mainstream
stuff in the local scene and he's currently acting in 9 Lives.
You know the guy who says, " Well, I don't know..
It's pretty depressing on my side here." in the latest
9 Lives trailer? Yeah.. the one dressed in the blue coller shirt.
He's really quite cute in real life! Too bad I wasn't
close enough to hear his voice, because he has
a really unique accent. Gosh... really very cute...

T1B3 sayonara

2006-03-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

It scares me when I am reminded of the fact
that I will be separating from my entire class
coming May.

The past year has been such a ride. Just as
Ronan Keating's major hit goes :
Life is a rollercoaster,
You've just got to ride it.

It seems all like a prank, when we're just
all getting to know one another better,
spending more time as a whole, bonding even
closer than before, rules and regulations and
administrative decisions come in to tear apart
this budding closeness amongst us all.

But looks like I've just got to ride it....
I'm really thankful for the bliss of getting to
know these bunch of people in this new
stage of my life. You all have made my
transition from Secondary school to
tertiary education a much easier one.

One that is full of :
childlikeness,
joy,
crazy memories,
simpleness
and most importantly
truthfulness.

I'd never expected myself to be that
fortunate to be in this class, where
we can all hang out together, having
fun and being true to ourselves. As
cliched as it may sound, I guess we're
all qualified to be called "one big family"
by now.

As much as we've had our ups and downs,
quarrels, irritation, and all the other
nooks and crannies that come along with
teenage angst, and the oh-so-familiar
bitching and bickering, but at the end of
the day.... I loved it.

Shang Yat Fai Lok, Mak Siu Fai

2006-03-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

Firstly,

Happy Birthday to Alan Mak!
The man who is the cause for the turning point
in my life. Simply because he has proven to me
a motto that I live by everyday:

1 script can change the whole course of your life.

I guess if it weren't for Mak Siu Fai, I wouldn't be
where I am today, heading in a direction which I
feel is the way to go. It's been approximately
two years since I've met him and I miss him quite
alot.

In fact, I guess envy is the word to summerise all
I want to say about Alan Mak.

Because he has achieved my life goal.
Using 1 script to impress and work side by side as
a co-director with the man i breathe every breath for -
andrew lau.

(sorry for the exaggeration, but I can't help myself
when I talk about these 2 directors who have been
such an influence in my life)

Oscars. Good night and Good Luck!

2006-03-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

Woo Hoo ! No prizes for guessing why I chose this picture to be on my blog!

The Oscars have just been over and I'm really overjoyed with the results!
I'm really proud of Lee Ang ( Please Dont' ever call him Ang Lee, beg you)
The Best Director Award is such a great recognition of his talents and his
immense passion for his craft. Helming an entire cast and crew of foreigners,
he has really come far and he really deserves my utmost respect and
admiration. It's such an honour to be at the Academy, being in the presence
of so many other great and renowned geniuses and legends! I can only
dream and fantasize of such a day.... It would take a million miracles...

As for Clooney, he is finally not just the sexiest man alive ! Hahahaha!
Syriana is such a complex film and he sure does deserve his trophy!
Ahhh... and he is sooo hot, soooo charming and soooo..... manly.
Oh My God. Really one of the fewest and rarest Caucasian men that I
like. An actor, director and producer. How can I resist Batman who is
now doing backstage work too??

Well... I guess it'll be a never-ending list if I continue to discuss and rant
about these 2 men up there..

So,
Good Night, and Good Luck !

my goddess.

2006-03-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

I just caught Lisa Ang's interview with Maggie Cheung on CNA,
and I'm really loving Maggie more and more each day.

You have absolutely no idea to what extent this woman is able
to leave me in awe everytime I see her on the screen.
I found myself leaning forward on my sofa, eyes wide open
and smiling to myself uncontrollably as I watched the interview.
She's just that stunning, elegant and sophisticated.
At the same time, though it may sound contradictory,
it's that simple and down-to-earth charm which she exudes
that just draws her to me. That air of nonchalance she carries
about her is so real and just.... amazing.

I pictured myself seated in the interview room, probably
behind the camera recording the show down for CNA.
The thought that I could be in the same room with Maggie Cheung,
being in her presence, is enough to make me feel that I can
evaporate instantly into the air, and fuse into the warm tender
lights filling up every corner of the room.

You may call me a lunatic,
or raise suspicions about my sexual preference,
but I assure you, I am normal and yes,
I still like men.

In the interview, I learnt that Maggie's interest for the time
being would be to move away from her dreary and almost
soul-devouring dramatic roles to take on roles which she
can feel light-hearted in. Comedies. Musicals.

Always envisioning her in the trademark cheongsam,
walking down the alley with her back towards the lens,
I find it almost hard, and am even skeptical about this
new change in direction.

But it is interesting, and even dream-like to even think
about it. Just imagine her in that different light.
Somehow I think Peter Chan will be able to bring out
a different Maggie. Just think:

Comrades - Maggie Cheung - Musical - Peter Chan.

Ahhh, now do we see a glimmer of hope?
I have to start searching for more inspiration.
She's too wonderful an actress to slip away.
If she does, it's going to be my 2nd greatest regret
of my possible-career, with Leslie Cheung already
leaving so suddenly.

Life is short, and like Maggie says,
If your heart tells you to do so, then follow it.
And if you really feel that you must do something,
then do it you shall.

to ray

2006-03-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

Ray, 收到你的 email，不知道你几时才能读到这Post...
你给的祝福，会时刻陪伴我，
让我顺利地过每一关，到达我的目标~

以后，如果还有机会再看到流星，我答应会为你许下你的愿望.
但还未到那天，我们还是继续欣赏每晚的星星吧！
服役要多照顾自己，小心点！
寂寞时看一看天上的星星，由它们代替我跟你谈天！

wasted opportunity or new opportunity

2006-02-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went to meet ah ken today.
not to be anti-climax but i'm feeling really sleepy now.
haha... meet him so often till i'm tired of him.
but i've to say he's become more " sek joe yan "... :)

And because of terry, looks like i can't reveal much here
anyway. And i can't even show you all the extremely
cool " pian chang " because terry is going to nag again.
But all i can say is that I heard Ko Chi Sum's "ACTION!"
and I'm still extremely happy and excited even till this
minute.

the tide will rise and fall
fresh opportunities linger in the distance.

dont think. think.

2006-02-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

Okay... this post is for serene...

the rules:
-the tagged victims list 8 different points of their perfect lover/partner,
mentioning the gender of said partner.
-tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on the post
letting them know they have been tagged.

my perfect male lover:

1) fun
think: Lance Chau.

2) adventurous
think: Lance Chau.

3) sensual
think: Lance Chau.

4) sense of security
dont think: Lance Chau.

Serene, you can cheat, so can I ... Hehe!

5) manly
-not neccessarily in looks, but in character.

6) similar in thinking, appreciation of lifestyle
think: peter chan, dick lee

7) humble
think: steven ong - SI managments executive producer

8) silent communication.

+ 9) Must be approved by my friends
dont think : Sam.

Actually, No 1 to No 7 is not so important.
Most importantly, No 8 must exist.
So, if any guy out there fulfills most of the criteria listed as
above, thank you for existing on this earth. Please go find
a better girl for yourself because Im not worthy of you...
haha~ I'm serious!

Hmm.. as for the next 8 victims, I shall pick:

1) yunqing
2) yingjun
3) apple
4) krys
5) von
6) aisya
7) eric
8) anthony

Heaven has been kind to me

2006-02-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

Heaven has been too kind to me.

Just when you miss someone and carry him in your thoughts,
Heaven leads him right in front of your eyes,
And brings him to you.

An answer to my prayer, or a deliberate surprise?

Whatever it may be, it was special,
And I treasure the arrangement.

Elton John’s song “There’s a calm surrender, to the rush of day.”

I guess this describes tonight’s mood the best.
Just huddling by the sea, letting the breeze calm our senses.
Nothing beats spending such wonderful moments with you all.

Talking and listening to one another.
Sharing about things, wondering about our future.
Watching the parliament house glow in the stillness of the night.
Hearing the waves lap up and feeling so pampered as you all
braid my hair and we immerse in each other’s presence.

If I were to live my life again, it would be meaningless,
If it were this relaxation and safeness I’d had to forfeit.
I would never agree.

Such relationships don’t come every lifetime.

Hao's ORD

2006-02-25T02:01:00.000+08:00

What a tiring day. I've finally found the time to settle down and blog.
Been spending almost a day filling up my resume to get a job.
Been eyeing this post of an editorial intern for bRo, which is a Men's
Chinese international fashion and lifestyle magazine. Hopefully
bRo will consider my application. What could be better than
conducting interviews and doing fashion shoots for beautiful men
in stylish clothes. I don't think I'll get it though, because they
probably want permanent editors, but, I'll just give it a try.

Talking about bRo, today was my brother's ORD. Time flies real fast.
It seemed just like yesterday that he came home all shaved bald, weary
and demoralised. But throughout these past 2 years, I've really seen
my brother mature. For Honour and Glory! ( Commando's motto, I can
hear my drunk cousin's voice echoing in my head on his wedding night).
I'm really proud of him and I'm glad he's finally back home.
We've seemed to have lost out on a lot of time together, bickering,
making each other angry, fighting for the bathroom and getting
on each others' nerves. I guess we've both changed so much.

Guess who amongst the 3 is my bro? Hint: He's the most Leng Zhai one~

And the answer is of course him :

Welcome to a new blog!

2006-02-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!

Welcome to my new blog!

Isn't the line of little rice balls below so cute?
I've to say a big "kap kun ka" to krystal for she's the
one who chose this cutesey blogskin, as well as tidy
up the settings for me. Thank you Krys!

Well, i'm abit tired for the day... Will probably blog more
tomorrow instead... Currently watching Kochan's
"Making of Endless Shock" musical... It's really great..
The extent of passion involved in it really inspires.
It's just really beautiful and so satisfying to see the
effort and 'heart' put in just for a good show. Kochan's
professionalism is both shocking and heart-wrenching.
I wonder when the day will come when I finally can fulfil
one of my dreams of doing theatre. The Neccessary Stage is
definately one of the organisations which I admire a lot.
Hope to catch one of their acts soon this holiday!